Patiently Waiting - Once again....

I find myself waiting on You Lord.  And I will patiently wait, but it is only possible in your strength and power. It is that I ask you for tonight.  You and your strength are what I'm seeking tonight.  Your breath, as I seek to find my own. It feels as if I've fallen and the wind has been knocked out of me. Your bearings, for mine are scattered.  For I am totally dependent on you, especially for this one Father.  It is so easy to realize that there is nothing, absolutely nothing, I can do or control on this one.  And, I recognize, however painful, that you are so graciously growing me and decreasing me all at the same time.  This recognition is becoming more easily real to me and is so welcomed.  So wonderfully in only the way that you can.  In that I draw strength, as I know it is from you.   Your ways are always amazing to me.  And, I think, I may just be one of the biggest fan of your ways Father.  Even though they aren't mine, forever am I grateful.  Your ways have captured my heart as only you can.  Thank you for not leaving me to my own. 

So lovingly I am reminded of another time of you asked me to trust and wait....... it was a biggy, as well.  I remember thinking I'd never make it.  Oddly, Lord, this lesson is an extension of before.  And, because of your Love and Grace, because of before, hope, strength and faith exist.  Whatever that will look like, whatever that means, however long that takes.  But, I must confess to you, this is hard and rocks  me to the core.

Your timing, Lord, is obvious to me.  And that , along with your Kingdom, is heavy on my heart tonight.  It is in obedience that I know I must take the next step, even though I am waiting.  I must let go and grab your hand.  I must continue to put one foot in front of the other...step by step....FORWARD.  Even while I am waiting.  It is in only in Faith that I will go on, not because I want to, because I feel like I can't sometimes.  But because I know it is what you would have me to do.  And, that gives me peace.  Even as I ask, even before I ask, I realize how you are growing my faith.  An answered prayer. 

“Stand still” – keep the posture of an upright man, ready for action, expecting further orders, cheerfully and patiently awaiting the directing voice; and it will not be long ere God shall say to you, as distinctly as Moses said it to the people of Israel, “Go forward.”

If the Lord Jehovah makes us wait, let us do so with our whole hearts; for blessed are all they that wait for Him. He is worth waiting for. The waiting itself is beneficial to us: it tries faith, exercises patience, trains submission, and endears the blessing when it comes. The Lord’s people have always been a waiting people- Charles Spurgeon

Help me, to continue to serve you and worship you- for that is my heart's desire.  Slowly but surely, step by step forward.  Once again, My Lord, I am Patiently Waiting...obediently, boldly, peacefully and confident. 

Peace for today friend...

Greetings from the well :)

Hello, loved ones.  Happy New Year! Hope you are off to a great year with fond memories of 2011. 

2011 was an interesting year for Mac and I.  How 'bout you?  Would love to hear how your year was.  In reflection, I find myself back writing tonight with a full heart and an empty house.  My sweetie is on an overnighter for work and its just me and the kitrons.  (and a very big bowl of popcorn!) lol  Travel safely lovey.  Thanks for all you do for us! 

This past year was one of blessings and setbacks, gains and losses.  A year of drawing closer to each other as we draw closer to Jesus.  It has been a rich, rich time for us.  Not just because of the blessings, but, because of the setbacks, gains and losses as well.  The richest blessings and movements of God for the year seemed to center around relationships.  Although there has been a painful releasing of some close relationships, we have found that the new ones that have been so lavishly brought into our lives have burst our heart with joy.  We never thought it possible to be showered with so many new loved ones.  And, some, are just so pleasantly surprising.  I guess you could say our garden looks a little different this year, but oh, how we are so thankful for the current and future bounty.  We are blessed and loved beyond measure. 

One of the relationships that has been deepened this year is with dear sweet Grammy.  Although this has been one of the biggest setbacks, as I said above, it is also one of the sweetest gifts.  Mac and I have had so much opportunity to spend time with Grandma  and have treasured each moment.  As a contrast to the rest of my life, I actually have been able to serve her.  She has always been there for me and Mac, always.  As Grandma fights the dimming years of her life, she does it with such love, constant generosity and just down right will. (I guess you now know where I find my strong will from, eh?  ;)...tis a blessing and a curse!) hee.   I admire and love her so, and consider her to be my mom.  I am reminded that all we know and are given are gifts to be enjoyed while they are loosely still held in our hands. 



One of the relationships unexpectedly lost this year was a very big piece of our family, our dear friend Sir Maximillion, aka as Maxieman. This precious soul was taken from us so unexpectedly, we barely could catch our breath in grief.  Maxieman was our first exposure to Maine Coon cats and was a very special boy....he was Paw-paws boy.  We miss him and his love and tricks immensely.   We know this can never compare to those who have lost loved one's this past year.  Our hearts go out to you. 

One of the surprise blessings this year is our relationship with Pursuit Ministries.  http://pursuitcommunities.org/  We look forward to what God is doing and being a part of  sharing the gospel to the city of St. Louis and the surrounding metro area.  We ask for your continued prayers for both Central Christian Church and Pursuit. 

And, last but not least, it wouldn't be a posting from me, and I shan't disappoint....we must share the latest additions to the Mc'D's family:  Welcome to our new, loving and unexpected gifts Arlee and Romeo

In closing, we wish to say to you....THANKS!  Thanks for your love and for the great relationships.  We are thankful for each of you.  We wish you peace and grace.

Forever Changed, Gina