Friday, June 14, 2013
Push me Lord, gently, but push me....
As I allow him to grow me and get braver and stronger in Him, I am able to look (peek) out more and more between the fingers over my eyes :) and see how thankful I am for this trial, this journey. Lord, help me to carry my cross...oh, you know how much I love you and want to, but sometimes it feels so long and so heavy, sometimes I don't want to pick it up and sometimes I just throw it down. But, I know that you will help me for I know you want only the very best for me. Somehow, especially today, I see how the scary things glorify you. Scare me sweetly Lord...thank you for helping me to pick it back up. It could only be my savior <3 font="">
Friday, March 8, 2013
I'm here.....back at the well. Will you join me?
I find myself, here, back at the well, thinking of you My Lord. Thinking of me. Reflecting in the well waters of this past year. It has been so long. So long....as I look back to think how empty and large and echoing I thought the well was last time I was here. Oh how my eyes sting as I look into the well and see how full it has always been. Oh, how the tears spill as I humbly thank you for your promises that are always there, but not always seen. For your trustworthiness. For your grace. For your love. For your gifts. For your righteousness. For your answered prayers. For your tender touches. For your loving correction. For your teaching. For your surrounding me with your children. Oh Father, how are their words to thank you.....
Last time I was at the well I came and left with a shattered heart. A heart of confusion, one of questions of why? why me? One of doubt. One of unbelief. One admittedly lacking in faith in this area of my life. One of wanting so desperately to trust, but lacking so. Lord I wanted to jump in the well and hide there forever, not knowing how I could breathe another moment, take another step or go on another day with such pain and such confusion. Oh, the confusion and the questions Lord. Although it was a struggle, to say the least Lord, one thing I knew for sure was, I didn't have the answers, and didn't have the power to fix my brokenness. Somehow, I knew it was something I had to leave with you, at the well, and wait on you for. It wasn't something that I could easily do, especially without you. But, somewhere in this heart you created, I knew I must trust in you and patiently wait. http://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=6492993638667727537#editor/target=post;postID=340954724015885351
For even recognizing that I must wait on you, I know, of course, only came from you. Even in my most darkest of times, you supernaturally gave me the faith I was so lacking. I am blown away once again by you and your ways.
Lord, I come to the well, this night, to say, humbly, thank you. To drink from the everlasting waters within and leave a few drops of tears of gratefulness to add. Thank you for teaching me to rely on you, to trust in you and for allowing me to patiently, yet frustratingly, :) wait upon you once again. For Lord, I did patiently wait, by your grace,as you had so lovingly instructed me to. And just barely over a year from my last visit to the well, I return with a new heart full of renewed joy, victory, love, increased faith and overwhelming sense of your love and appreciation for your ways. How is it possible I could be more amazed by your ways? :)
This past year Lord has been one of the most painful, yet, one of the most beautiful to me. One of the sweetest in my 46. For it is in this year, that you have grown me and had me trust and rely on you in ways I never have before. And, through every one of the painful moments, every difficult breath, every tear, every fear and doubt.....I thank you. I praise you, Abba Father.
For Lord, you have answered my prayers. In your ways and your perfect timing. And oh, how beautiful your answers have been. I think the most sweetest of all is how you are changing my heart Lord. Renewing it daily. Growing it to the point I feel it will burst. Purposefully, molding my heart to be more like yours. I pray that you will continue my journey in this regard and I know you will. I leave this as a marker, for I know as you continue in your love there will be more trials, more tribulations (dare I type it out loud??). Within those trials and tribulations, Father, I am praying for you and your Kingdom to be rippled throughout my life. I pray for ripples God. And in those that are yet to come I lift my hands to you in worship and to the heavens and say thank you.
Last time I was at the well I came and left with a shattered heart. A heart of confusion, one of questions of why? why me? One of doubt. One of unbelief. One admittedly lacking in faith in this area of my life. One of wanting so desperately to trust, but lacking so. Lord I wanted to jump in the well and hide there forever, not knowing how I could breathe another moment, take another step or go on another day with such pain and such confusion. Oh, the confusion and the questions Lord. Although it was a struggle, to say the least Lord, one thing I knew for sure was, I didn't have the answers, and didn't have the power to fix my brokenness. Somehow, I knew it was something I had to leave with you, at the well, and wait on you for. It wasn't something that I could easily do, especially without you. But, somewhere in this heart you created, I knew I must trust in you and patiently wait. http://www.blogger.com/blogger.g?blogID=6492993638667727537#editor/target=post;postID=340954724015885351
For even recognizing that I must wait on you, I know, of course, only came from you. Even in my most darkest of times, you supernaturally gave me the faith I was so lacking. I am blown away once again by you and your ways.
Lord, I come to the well, this night, to say, humbly, thank you. To drink from the everlasting waters within and leave a few drops of tears of gratefulness to add. Thank you for teaching me to rely on you, to trust in you and for allowing me to patiently, yet frustratingly, :) wait upon you once again. For Lord, I did patiently wait, by your grace,as you had so lovingly instructed me to. And just barely over a year from my last visit to the well, I return with a new heart full of renewed joy, victory, love, increased faith and overwhelming sense of your love and appreciation for your ways. How is it possible I could be more amazed by your ways? :)
This past year Lord has been one of the most painful, yet, one of the most beautiful to me. One of the sweetest in my 46. For it is in this year, that you have grown me and had me trust and rely on you in ways I never have before. And, through every one of the painful moments, every difficult breath, every tear, every fear and doubt.....I thank you. I praise you, Abba Father.
For Lord, you have answered my prayers. In your ways and your perfect timing. And oh, how beautiful your answers have been. I think the most sweetest of all is how you are changing my heart Lord. Renewing it daily. Growing it to the point I feel it will burst. Purposefully, molding my heart to be more like yours. I pray that you will continue my journey in this regard and I know you will. I leave this as a marker, for I know as you continue in your love there will be more trials, more tribulations (dare I type it out loud??). Within those trials and tribulations, Father, I am praying for you and your Kingdom to be rippled throughout my life. I pray for ripples God. And in those that are yet to come I lift my hands to you in worship and to the heavens and say thank you.
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Patiently Waiting - Once again....
I find myself waiting on You Lord. And I will patiently wait, but it is only possible in your strength and power. It is that I ask you for tonight. You and your strength are what I'm seeking tonight. Your breath, as I seek to find my own. It feels as if I've fallen and the wind has been knocked out of me. Your bearings, for mine are scattered. For I am totally dependent on you, especially for this one Father. It is so easy to realize that there is nothing, absolutely nothing, I can do or control on this one. And, I recognize, however painful, that you are so graciously growing me and decreasing me all at the same time. This recognition is becoming more easily real to me and is so welcomed. So wonderfully in only the way that you can. In that I draw strength, as I know it is from you. Your ways are always amazing to me. And, I think, I may just be one of the biggest fan of your ways Father. Even though they aren't mine, forever am I grateful. Your ways have captured my heart as only you can. Thank you for not leaving me to my own. So lovingly I am reminded of another time of you asked me to trust and wait....... it was a biggy, as well. I remember thinking I'd never make it. Oddly, Lord, this lesson is an extension of before. And, because of your Love and Grace, because of before, hope, strength and faith exist. Whatever that will look like, whatever that means, however long that takes. But, I must confess to you, this is hard and rocks me to the core.
Your timing, Lord, is obvious to me. And that , along with your Kingdom, is heavy on my heart tonight. It is in obedience that I know I must take the next step, even though I am waiting. I must let go and grab your hand. I must continue to put one foot in front of the other...step by step....FORWARD. Even while I am waiting. It is in only in Faith that I will go on, not because I want to, because I feel like I can't sometimes. But because I know it is what you would have me to do. And, that gives me peace. Even as I ask, even before I ask, I realize how you are growing my faith. An answered prayer.
“Stand still” – keep the posture of an upright man, ready for action, expecting further orders, cheerfully and patiently awaiting the directing voice; and it will not be long ere God shall say to you, as distinctly as Moses said it to the people of Israel, “Go forward.”
If the Lord Jehovah makes us wait, let us do so with our whole hearts; for blessed are all they that wait for Him. He is worth waiting for. The waiting itself is beneficial to us: it tries faith, exercises patience, trains submission, and endears the blessing when it comes. The Lord’s people have always been a waiting people- Charles Spurgeon
Help me, to continue to serve you and worship you- for that is my heart's desire. Slowly but surely, step by step forward. Once again, My Lord, I am Patiently Waiting...obediently, boldly, peacefully and confident.
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Monday, January 9, 2012
Greetings from the well :)
Hello, loved ones. Happy New Year! Hope you are off to a great year with fond memories of 2011.
2011 was an interesting year for Mac and I. How 'bout you? Would love to hear how your year was. In reflection, I find myself back writing tonight with a full heart and an empty house. My sweetie is on an overnighter for work and its just me and the kitrons. (and a very big bowl of popcorn!) lol Travel safely lovey. Thanks for all you do for us!
This past year was one of blessings and setbacks, gains and losses. A year of drawing closer to each other as we draw closer to Jesus. It has been a rich, rich time for us. Not just because of the blessings, but, because of the setbacks, gains and losses as well. The richest blessings and movements of God for the year seemed to center around relationships. Although there has been a painful releasing of some close relationships, we have found that the new ones that have been so lavishly brought into our lives have burst our heart with joy. We never thought it possible to be showered with so many new loved ones. And, some, are just so pleasantly surprising. I guess you could say our garden looks a little different this year, but oh, how we are so thankful for the current and future bounty. We are blessed and loved beyond measure.
One of the relationships that has been deepened this year is with dear sweet Grammy. Although this has been one of the biggest setbacks, as I said above, it is also one of the sweetest gifts. Mac and I have had so much opportunity to spend time with Grandma and have treasured each moment. As a contrast to the rest of my life, I actually have been able to serve her. She has always been there for me and Mac, always. As Grandma fights the dimming years of her life, she does it with such love, constant generosity and just down right will. (I guess you now know where I find my strong will from, eh? ;)...tis a blessing and a curse!) hee. I admire and love her so, and consider her to be my mom. I am reminded that all we know and are given are gifts to be enjoyed while they are loosely still held in our hands.
One of the relationships unexpectedly lost this year was a very big piece of our family, our dear friend Sir Maximillion, aka as Maxieman. This precious soul was taken from us so unexpectedly, we barely could catch our breath in grief. Maxieman was our first exposure to Maine Coon cats and was a very special boy....he was Paw-paws boy. We miss him and his love and tricks immensely. We know this can never compare to those who have lost loved one's this past year. Our hearts go out to you.
One of the surprise blessings this year is our relationship with Pursuit Ministries. http://pursuitcommunities.org/ We look forward to what God is doing and being a part of sharing the gospel to the city of St. Louis and the surrounding metro area. We ask for your continued prayers for both Central Christian Church and Pursuit.
And, last but not least, it wouldn't be a posting from me, and I shan't disappoint....we must share the latest additions to the Mc'D's family: Welcome to our new, loving and unexpected gifts Arlee and Romeo
In closing, we wish to say to you....THANKS! Thanks for your love and for the great relationships. We are thankful for each of you. We wish you peace and grace.
Forever Changed, Gina
2011 was an interesting year for Mac and I. How 'bout you? Would love to hear how your year was. In reflection, I find myself back writing tonight with a full heart and an empty house. My sweetie is on an overnighter for work and its just me and the kitrons. (and a very big bowl of popcorn!) lol Travel safely lovey. Thanks for all you do for us!
This past year was one of blessings and setbacks, gains and losses. A year of drawing closer to each other as we draw closer to Jesus. It has been a rich, rich time for us. Not just because of the blessings, but, because of the setbacks, gains and losses as well. The richest blessings and movements of God for the year seemed to center around relationships. Although there has been a painful releasing of some close relationships, we have found that the new ones that have been so lavishly brought into our lives have burst our heart with joy. We never thought it possible to be showered with so many new loved ones. And, some, are just so pleasantly surprising. I guess you could say our garden looks a little different this year, but oh, how we are so thankful for the current and future bounty. We are blessed and loved beyond measure.
One of the relationships that has been deepened this year is with dear sweet Grammy. Although this has been one of the biggest setbacks, as I said above, it is also one of the sweetest gifts. Mac and I have had so much opportunity to spend time with Grandma and have treasured each moment. As a contrast to the rest of my life, I actually have been able to serve her. She has always been there for me and Mac, always. As Grandma fights the dimming years of her life, she does it with such love, constant generosity and just down right will. (I guess you now know where I find my strong will from, eh? ;)...tis a blessing and a curse!) hee. I admire and love her so, and consider her to be my mom. I am reminded that all we know and are given are gifts to be enjoyed while they are loosely still held in our hands.
One of the relationships unexpectedly lost this year was a very big piece of our family, our dear friend Sir Maximillion, aka as Maxieman. This precious soul was taken from us so unexpectedly, we barely could catch our breath in grief. Maxieman was our first exposure to Maine Coon cats and was a very special boy....he was Paw-paws boy. We miss him and his love and tricks immensely. We know this can never compare to those who have lost loved one's this past year. Our hearts go out to you.
One of the surprise blessings this year is our relationship with Pursuit Ministries. http://pursuitcommunities.org/ We look forward to what God is doing and being a part of sharing the gospel to the city of St. Louis and the surrounding metro area. We ask for your continued prayers for both Central Christian Church and Pursuit.
And, last but not least, it wouldn't be a posting from me, and I shan't disappoint....we must share the latest additions to the Mc'D's family: Welcome to our new, loving and unexpected gifts Arlee and Romeo
In closing, we wish to say to you....THANKS! Thanks for your love and for the great relationships. We are thankful for each of you. We wish you peace and grace.
Forever Changed, Gina
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Welcome to my blog!
Hi Come on in, get comfortable....I'm thrilled you are here :) I look forward to taking this journey with you. I just love writing, and although I love the written and spoken word, I am an amateur blogger extraordinaire! :) But, if you can stand it and you'd like to join me.....let's go!
If I may, please allow me to introduce myself. My name is Gina, 43, married to the most wonderful man, mother of two kitrons, and a very blessed child of God. I'm sure as we go I will touch on all of these aspects of my life at some point and more.
I guess the most important thing that you could ever know about me is that I am a born again Christian. My Lord and Savior Jesus captured my heart at the age of 32, and set me free from a life of confusion, deception, bondage and real lack of any purpose. I am eternally grateful for all that He has done and although I certainly am not worthy of such lavish love and could never repay Him, I hope and pray that the rest of my remaining years will be a reflection of that gratitude. Because of Him, my life has drastically changed...beautifully and for the better.
It hasn't always been that way though....you see, as the title of my blog reflects, I can certainly relate to and identify with the woman at the well. I guess the down and dirty, nitty gritty details aren't really what is important here. The only person, the only thing that is important and that has made the only difference is Jesus Christ. He knows everything about me, even things I don't have the capability nor desire to truly know. But just as the woman at the well, He continues to lavishly quench my relentless thirst for truth, love, purpose, forgiveness and fulfillment. If you can envision....the last puzzle piece has clicked in and the deep, dark, echoing, cavernous hole in my heart has been continually filled. I have a long way to go in my journey with Him and I certainly don't have it all figured out yet. But I want to share with you....The most awesome part to have figured out is...even if there wasn't a Heaven (which please, let us make no mistake....there 100% is WOO HOO) all I've ever really needed is Him and His Word. And although I could die at this moment complete, I relish the fact and eagerly anticipate growing more in Him and getting to know Him, His will and His kingdom.
Come, my dear friends....join me at the well
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